Change

Dear God,

Our relationship I wouldn't say has been the strongest for the past 3 years. It started around grade 6, that year that I dreaded because so much change had happened that year. I was lost. I was completely directionless. You were not in my life, no you were. You were just always behind me and I never looked there. I was so caught up in having a perfect life. And when your life seems to be perfect God suddenly is not needed there anymore. Then, around 6 months ago. Change happened again and this time it was painful. My life was no longer that perfect, harmless, painless, happy life. It was this life I where I was constantly stuck in the past, regretting every mistake I have ever made. Life is all about changes. But that's what I'm most afraid of. Change is good. Change causes you to do things you never imagined you could. Change allows me to meet new people, change took away that one thing I once thought was everything. God knew I would not be able to return to him if my life was so perfect, he purposely gave me obstacles so I can learn that this world is not all unflawed. It is flawed in every way, shape and form. God doesn't want us to just turn to him when we are in trouble, in need, in need of you. He wants us to turn to him no matter what. He wants us to turn to him when we are happy, when our lives are perfect. We should be grateful and worship him everyday for he is the Lord and the one who saved us all. God, I'm not perfect and when my life seems to be perfect I always seem to forget you. I'm sorry. I will try oh so very hard to love you even when I don't have change in my life. I will learn to always remember your name. God you are great!